Day 356 – I never cry

When I was a little girl I used to cry as all children do in order to get what I wanted. Sometimes it worked, but most of the times it didn’t. I remember at some point hurting myself badly and starting to cry from the top of my lungs. That’s when it happened. My father

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Day 355 – New beginnings

Exactly three years ago I was moving into this new house to start a new life. Pregnant, unpacking bags and trying desperately not to plan too much ahead, I took every breath looking around and smiling because of this new place. Today we looked back at those times and instead of unpacking we packed and

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Day 354 – Did I say devil?

A pact with the devil I said yesterday. A pact with the devil. Carrying stones heavier than my own weight I said and preparing to sign a new contract with the devil. And I picked up the pen and left all the weight down and just when I was about to lean in and sign

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Day 353 – Pact with the devil

You know how sometimes you feel you are in hell and can’t get out? You keep playing the same memory in your head, over and over again, the memory that shows you how you shook the devil’s hand and told him you are going to be his for a while. Of course you didn’t know

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Day 352 – It’s back

Today was suppose to be a special day. Ephia and I were supposed to have fun building and painting in the morning and after her nap to go visit a birthday girl, my mom,  who was expecting us with cake and goodies. Nothing of the above happened. My friend the pain, the pain that is

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Day 351 – Sleepless night

They all say that a good night sleep does miracles. They say that if you go to bed before the rouster sings you will wake up fresh and rested before the rooster’s song in the morning. What if you go to bed after the rooster’s morning song? What if you ignored both of his signals

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Day 350 – Still foggy

This Sunday was kind of weird. Aside from the constant sleeping sensation and staying in bed until midday, you would think that one would be relaxed and rested after ten hours of sleep. Not exactly, giving that when the rain started knocking at my window I just went right back to sleep. I took a

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Day 349 – Unfair day

Today started out with me feeling lost and betrayed. Betrayed by myself, by my feelings and by the compromises I have to constantly make. And I hate compromises. Is there anyone else outhere who still doesn’t know that this was a overall horrible year? You know what’s worst than having a horrible year? Having an

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Day 348 – Crazy day

I spent my entire day reflecting about everything: my life, my choices, my friends, my family, my world. I looked at my daughter chasing bubbles all morning thinking I could look at her playing forever. I watched her hand going into mine when we took the tram home. I felt her kiss coming down my

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Day 347 – Adventures

Life is an adventure. I have spent my entire life trying to seek answers and discover new things about myself and the people around me. I will probably do that for the rest of my life and you know what, it’s incredible. Making each challenge into a quest and walking on a path that never

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