Ever since I have started writing a daily post here, even on those days when I felt I didn’t have any good topic to write about, I managed to patch up something nice, or I hope interesting.
Today I feel like I have absolutely nothing to share; no ideas, no opinions, no event that has happened to me. I feel the need to stay quiet and even if I could write about at least one dozen things right now, I prefer to stand still and resist the urge to do it. I never knew the year I would choose to do this 365 days challenge, will be so harsh on me and my family, and I most certainly didn’t think that it will be so hard to write everyday about a piece of who I am, about things that define me, about my normal routines.
I had so many days when I just wanted to lie or quit and so many days when I just wanted to scream out of happiness, but as I understood from the first week I have started this project, there is a balance that I must keep with all costs, a line so fine that everyday while I am writing my post, I have to go back and forward for minutes in a row before finding the right way. And I did cross that line, sometimes accidentally and sometimes because I had to, but still no one knows who I really am, which means the balance is safe.
I am having an unspeakable day today and not in a bad way nor a happy one, just an unspeakable one. We often need silence and ambiguity just to find ourselves again and today I fell like I could stay silent until the end of time, but it’s just a feeling. Feelings always play tricks on us. Until tomorrow…
