As some of you may already know, we have completely changed our lives in the last year or so. We didn’t want to end up being frustrated for not doing what we love, so we’ve risked it all (in other people’s opinion).
The thing that annoys me the most is not the gossip that reaches my ears from time to time (we are all human, thus we all NEED to gossip), but the assumptions that are being made regarding our decision. From time to time, people I barely know come up to me and say “You are so brave! I couldn’t imagine living a life like yours. You must be so happy because there is nothing easier than doing what you love!” I usually smile, bend my head on a side and mumble a “Yeah.” I do not make a habit out of complaining because it’s such a waste of time that I could use doing other things, but stuff like that pisses me off. First of all there is nothing harder than doing what you love to do and not what you are specifically asked for. When you are your own boss and you can only count on yourself for everything, things are starting to get a little complicated. First of all you have no one to yell at at the end of the month if your salary is not in your account yet, except for the mirror if that makes you feel better; you have no one to turn to for help if you get stuck on a project that you’ve created from scratch; you don’t get brakes because that’s all you can think about and if you also have a family, then my friend, you are really doomed. There is a romantic pattern, if I can call it that, when you decide to do exactly what you want to do: you fall in love, you long for that love, you can’t wait to be together, you move in together, you are happy and then drama begins like in any love story. Whether that drama will end with a happy end you will never know. Do you know those butterflies that you feel in your stomach when you go on your first date with someone you really like? Now, do you remember the despair that haunted you whenever you were unsure of the other person’s feelings? It’s kind of the same thing, only much, much worse 🙂
Now, dear strangers who think that my life is great because I get to write, hence be what I feel I need to be, this is no piece of cake. My life is not that peachy as you would think, but yes it does have some advantages that maybe you would love to have in your own life that I personally know nothing about. Assuming things and spreading them around, so that eventually they struck my ears, makes you either a very bad gossiper, or a very ignorant one. When I was little my grandfather used to say this to me whenever I assumed things about my friends: “Never wish for someone else’s life, some day you may be punished and get your wish; first ask them about it and then decide.”