That’s right, when? You have to be patient, you have to take each day as it comes, you have to try and not think to much ahead and just enjoy the moment, be in the moment, but when? I would say right now.
We are all emotionally unstable, or maybe not all of us but most of us, and I am no exception I must say. And today my brain screams when? because that’s what it does when I start having a nice writing flow again. Whenever the pages fill one after the other my brain screams when? How much patience do I have to have? When will it all happen? Did it happen already and I missed it? I know the answer to that question too well and still I can’t help but fall into that trap of weakness and doubt. So, today I will allow myself to feel doubt and maybe even a little despair. Today I won’t be brave or optimistic; I will hold my own hand and embrace a small depression just because that’s what I need right now.
Tomorrow? Tomorrow everything will start all over again.Tomorrow the veil of need will fall off and I will enjoy that second, that hour, that day as it comes. Tomorrow I may be happy, I may be sad, I may be romantic, but the only thing I won’t be is the person who wants to ask the same useless question, over and over again: when?
