Have you ever felt lonely among people? You know the feeling, being only a shadow who walks around acting like a human being.
Sometimes imposed solitude is the best thing you can offer yourself and other times it’s just a sad fact, feeling misunderstood, invisible, unnoticed. I have experience both in time and I think I like them equally. Yeah, it hurts when you feel invisible and you can’t fit in anywhere, but if you take a step back, if you embrace your shadowy state, you can observe people better, you can see their flaws and qualities more clear, which in my case it’s great. But feeling lonely can’t ever be a good thing right? You start asking yourself questions, you doubt yourself and finally you let yourself be a pray of your own fears. So how do you get to be this lonely? Why do you allow yourself to immerse in solitude? Is it the others? Is it you?
There is no right answer to the question why are you lonely. Each situation is unique, each pain is different, but there is only one thing that we all have in common when we feel this way: loneliness hurts and sometimes it hurts so much that you tell yourself that this is what you want. Loneliness hurts and when you are lonely among people, it rips your heart apart. Loneliness hurts and if you’re not careful you will become the shadow they all see. Loneliness just hurts.
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