Writer In Florence Ela Vasilescu

Day 332 – No feelings left to give


I could give up tomorrow. I could just pack my bags and leave everything behind if I would be given the choice. And there is always a choice. I would abandon this beautiful city that changed my life, the amazing people I have met, the house where my daughter took her first steps, myself. I have no feelings left to give.

I would do that starting now, but…I choose not to. Everyday I choose to love what I do and sometimes it feels like I am fighting demons bigger than me, stronger than me, but somehow I defeat them by the end of each day. Because loving what you do is a choice and not a given. You can call it destiny, you can call it vocation or any other mortal name, but in the end you have to make the choice, you have to decide what defines you. So, how does one do that? How does one wake up every morning and despite everything being against him, he chooses not to listen and to go on?

I don’t have an universal answer yet and maybe there isn’t one, but I do know why I keep doing it. If I would stop, if I would give in to all the obstacles, to all the demons standing in my way, I would have no feelings left to give. I would be empty. The things that define me would disappear, the things that I love would become a torture and although left with no obstacles to face, I would be stripped of everything that I am. I would be dead inside. So, no matter the cost, no matter the struggle, never give up making that choice everyday, because in the end it’s the only thing that allows you to feel for a split second what happiness is.

About the author

Ela Vasilescu

I’m a writer based in Florence, Italy.

Human nature inspires me, different cultures, traditions, folk stories and the differences which make us unique. Documenting stories is a privilege, a glimpse into humanity, an unforgettable experience, one which I embrace and honour every day.

If you have a story twitching in the back of your pocket, one that is ready to be told, shared and heard, chances are I will be ready to listen; so don’t hesitate to send me an email.

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Writer In Florence Ela Vasilescu