Is anybody out there? I need help. I have no idea whatsoever about what to write. While talking to a friend the other day, he told me: “Write about nothing!” and I said to myself this may be an idea worth exploring. Right, I have to write about my day, but you know what, my day was horrible today. Besides the lack of internet and the lack of will to leave the safety of my bed, I also discovered that once in a while my life takes the same turn over and over again and I am going in circles.
So, today I will be vague and maybe a little incoherent, because that’s how my brain is working right now. I want to be able to blame someone for this re-occurrence of depressing events in my life, but I am afraid I would find so many people guilty for it that my blockage would instantly transform itself into rage and I will start screaming. So what? Why can’t we scream once in a while? It would be such a relief to just scream your pain or joy, without any consequences or without the looks strangers give you and shut you up completely, out of fear of ending up in a mental institution. I think we are all mental, but trained to behave.
I should stop; I should put away my passing through sadness and just catch the smile that twists and turns playing around me in the room. Good night happiness, wherever you are!
